Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Baby Man

Today I went to Baby Connor's school to help out. It was kind of a downer. He was so cute and I loved every minute of being there with him, but my heart hurt as I watched him struggle to understand directions for the most basic tasks. It takes so much effort for him to grasp simple concepts and to cooperate on his own. His teachers are so positive and so encouraging, but it was very hard for me to see how behind he is. The classroom setting really showed me how severe his delay is. The other kids are very delayed too, so he's in good company. And the teachers are literally super-human with magic powers. But still, it was hard. I know I have to accept that he may always be this way and that he may never catch up. But at the end of the day, it doesn't even matter. I'm so in love with him, I'll take whatever I can get. I could handle much bigger health issues and mental disabilities with him if it means I get to have him. I'll take him no matter what.

5 comments:

starr said...

it takes a super-human to really know one. baby connor is lucky to have you

Jessica said...

I'm glad you have him and he has you.

Mags [Margaret] said...

You are an amazing human and mother. Thank you for sharing your experiences, heartaches, and immense love.

Mags

LTD in Las Vegas said...

Sorry Em...it is ok to have your down moments...have you ever read that little writing about "Your trip to Holland"? (I think that is the name) I will send it to you if you haven't read it..

Anonymous said...

I too am grateful for Connor. Every time I look into his big blue eyes I feel a little piece of Heaven shining through. For that I am truly grateful! He is a tender mercy